Congrats! You're a yandere! You are initially very loving, caring, and gentle to someone (or at least innocent) they really, truly like and care for a lot before their romantic devotion becomes mentally destructive in nature, often through violence and/or brutality to your lover!
You don't seem to cry as much , but you don't know how you feel ,you seem lost,confused,happy but not,heartbrocken, your mind or your heart can't tell how you feel.