I truely know how you feel. Ling story, but I know, it hurts. You just want to cry alone in your room and leave the world behind. But at the same time, all you truely want is him back. There may be nothing you can do now, but just give it some time and see what happens. Im working on the same thing right now. Just remember, there are lots of other greta people out there who want you too. Try giving them some attention. You never know what may happen...
You are hard as stone. You hardly ever cry. You only cry when you're angry or badly hurt. Sometimes tears seem to fall for no reason, but they really fall because of how you feel inside. You should let your emotions come out more and dont fight back your tears. If you hide your emotions, they will build up and eventually come out all at once when it is least convienent for you and your heart.
Congratulations, you're proper emo! Chances are, you're 17 years old, don't smile or show enthusiasm for anything, like high-pitched inaudible lyrics (think Dashboard Confessional or Taking Back Sunday), tend to wear scarves pretty often, even when its not cold, and have dark shoulder-length hair at an angle covering at least 60% of your face. You may possibly be crying as you read this, or listening to music in the dark.