You are not a noob but you are not not a noob as well. You are sometimes not good at games and accept this fact by trying to get better. You will sometimes do noobish things but when you are outnumbered, everybody gets behind you.
It's probably time I see someone about it, but I cannot sleep well. I have counted cracks in my ceiling over 48 times, and it either could be stress-related or I may just be loving the night all too much!